Episode 6

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Welcome everyone to Comically Exposed.

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This is episode six that we're recording.

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I am Heather.

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I'm Gabbie.

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This is my second time doing the intro and...

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The crowd goes wild.

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Yeah.

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I don't know why it always makes me nervous to do the intro.

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I think I'm better doing second take, whatever.

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I don't know.

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This is the second time doing the intro and I'm making a big deal out of it.

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I think that's fine.

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I really enjoyed that right before we recorded.

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I asked you if you wanted to do the intro and I saw all the intrusive thoughts come

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into your face.

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I was like, oh Gabbie, not going to reassure, not going to reassure.

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That is why I accepted it.

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To do it despite all the feelings going no.

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Totally.

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This is because we are fairly far in our OCD battle, recovery, whatever you want to call

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it.

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One of the things that OCD does is reassurance seeking behavior is very common.

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I don't know if we've talked about it before, but my therapist says once is assurance, twice

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or more is reassurance.

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When you are friend or family, loved one of somebody with OCD, it can be very hard not

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to tell them, hey, everything's going to be okay.

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Hey, your fear of running over bunny rabbits in the middle of the night with the car that

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you stole is not going to happen.

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What that does is it feeds into their OCD and so their compulsion is seeking reassurance

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from you.

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Seeking assurance is not necessarily a symptom.

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It's just it gets exaggerated with the disorder.

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Yes.

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Yes, it's a natural thing to reassure someone, comfort someone and other things, but there

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is a time and place.

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For us, it's good to be flexible and think flexibly.

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Or just watch your co-host squirm uncomfortably.

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Get pleasure from it?

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No.

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It really wasn't.

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I mean, yes, yes, yes, you're right.

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You're right.

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It was a sick pleasure, but it was only because of the recognition of I knew the uncomfortable

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feelings that you were going through while I'm assuming.

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Just because that's what I would be going through.

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Yeah.

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Right now, all I'm thinking about is can we re-record this part so it can sound better?

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No, we cannot.

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There you are.

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Not even assuring.

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I'm just being mean and pointing to my watch.

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Yes, yes.

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Oh, we have to look at time.

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Okay.

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So Gabbie, what have you been up to?

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Oh my gosh.

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Thank you so much for asking.

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Honestly, not a lot in terms of comedy.

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Oh, except for the one big thing that maybe we should talk about.

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But I'm just going to say there was a bunch of stuff that I wanted to do that didn't come

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to fruition.

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I wanted to talk to you about doing a graphic for the Bat Shit podcast.

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I still want to do that.

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I still want to talk about the table read, you know, bop, bop, bop.

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But my one big goal this week was to do standup again.

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And there is an open mic in Oakland that only happens once a month.

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It's for women and queer people.

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And so I was like, yes, that's going to be a great environment for me to do my second

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time of standup.

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The problem is the theater is in a vibrant part of the city where I took improv classes

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last year and you park and you walk past people who are just out doing some pretty hard drugs

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right on the street.

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Yeah.

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Which, you know, by and large, I don't really have problems with that, but that just kind

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of gives you a flavor of what the neighborhood is kind of like.

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So I was going to look for covered parking because the last time I went to the theater,

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my car got broken into.

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So looking for covered parking in Oakland.

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We're in downtown Oakland.

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It's like 530.

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Sun is still out.

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My dad is in the car with me.

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He came to support and we are stopped at a red light talking about where to park next.

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We're in the right hand lane, right?

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Two lanes and there's a car to the left and we're at the red light.

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And all of a sudden a car comes around me on the bike lane and parks perpendicular to

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me.

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So it is blocking me and the driver pops out of that car very angry.

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And so I said, Nope, put it in reverse and went around that car.

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There was a red light.

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I looked both ways and I ran that red light.

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And when we got to the end of the next block, before we got to the end of the next block,

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we heard the first gunshot.

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And then my dad just said, just keep going.

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And so I took the very first right I could to put buildings in between us and because

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there was a second gunshot.

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It was in the moment.

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In the moment, I am, I'm very good in a crisis.

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I think because of my ADHD brain, when things are happening fast, that's when things are

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finally happening at the speed of my brain.

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So it was just like, as soon as I felt danger, as soon as that car, because at first I thought

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the car was just pulling in front of me to like try and make a left hand turn from like

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the bike lane or something.

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Because you know, people are just wild.

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Yeah.

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And, but instead when they parked, like when they blocked me in, then I said, oh, fuck

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no.

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You know, this is danger.

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This is goodbye time.

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So yeah, so it was just like this step, then the next step, then the next step, then the

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next step.

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And I will say it's, it's kind of nice because my OCD did not have a chance to show up, right?

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In emergency situations, it's just this decision, next decision, this decision, next decision,

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take in information, boom, boom, boom, keep moving forward.

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So that was good.

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I also like, as we were driving away, I looked at my rear view mirror and I saw that the

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driver was getting into an altercation with the car that was, people in the car, whatever,

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that was still back there, you know.

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All of this took place within like 15, 20 seconds, maybe 30 seconds, maybe by the time

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we had turned the corner and started driving away.

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And my dad called 911 to report shots fired so that, you know, ambulance could be called

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or whatever.

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I did, okay, I'm sorry for laughing because it was very scary.

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And my dad and I went two towns over and ended up getting ramen at a mall and each getting

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some sake and just a drink, which neither one of us are big drinkers, but it was like,

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oh, I think it's time to do a little of that.

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But after the first shot, part of me was like, oh no, people are hurt.

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Like, you need to go back and take care of people.

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So when my dad said just keep going, I'm really glad he did.

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I'm not entirely sure that I would have gone back to like, you know, yeah.

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So it was pretty gnarly.

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Yeah, I can imagine.

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I mean, it's because I mean, I heard this before we were recording our podcast.

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So I'm not reacting the way that I reacted when I first heard it because I went, what?

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And then when you sent that text, I was, I read it and then I read it again.

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I'm like, I literally didn't read any of the words because I was like, okay, she's typing.

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That means that she's not dead.

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So what the hell?

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Yeah.

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So I guess that's your excuse now for not doing your standard.

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I know.

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As we were driving away, I did go by the theater one more time on our way to like ramen because

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we had, and I was like, oh, well there's the theater and there's people and you know, maybe

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I should.

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And I turned to my dad and I said, I honestly, I don't think I can do stand up.

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And he was like, no, you can't do stand up right now.

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Yeah, something traumatic didn't happen to you.

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He's like, well, somebody didn't shoot at you for the last four seconds.

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So I think you're fine.

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Just walk it up.

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It was so intense.

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And yeah, and I like, as soon as I got to the ramen place, I got a text from you and

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a text from Susan saying like, break a leg.

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And so I was like, oh, I think I'm going to tell them what happened because I didn't know

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how to respond and you know, and pretend, you know?

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So and also thank you for letting me text you because it did allow me to process a little

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bit, you know?

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Yeah, yeah, of course.

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Yeah.

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But yeah, it was real interesting.

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You know, afterwards, it was like my dad and I would be like talking about it and then

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kind of there will be a lull and then we would make some very dark jokes because that's how

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my family digests the world and life and how we process things.

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The thing is, I love the city of Oakland so much, so, so much.

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This isn't a joke, but one of the things that is kind of sticking with me is my dad and

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I both separately tried to go online to see if, you know, the police wrote about it or

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report or, you know, I don't know what, just to see like what actually happened after we

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left hoping that everybody is okay, right?

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I searched and there were too many hits on the search engine for Oakland, for shootings,

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for shootings that had happened that day, that week, police shootings that had killed

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people, altercations.

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I mean, it was just like, I didn't know how to modify the search to isolate that incident.

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So walk a walk a walk.

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Fozzy Bear is your comfort zone.

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Oh boy.

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But yeah, I definitely have like the first three minutes of my set.

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If I go back to that theater, I think it's pretty, sorry to bring the podcast down and

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talk about things that aren't OCD or comedy.

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Well, I mean, it's still related to us.

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I mean, that's the whole point, right?

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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So I'm trying not to see it as the universe telling me, white girl, you are not funny,

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that you should not be doing comedy.

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How many times do I have to tell you?

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You almost get shot, your car gets broken into, but that's jokes.

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All for comedy.

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Yeah, exactly.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Hi.

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I am having a hard time finding a follow-up question.

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I don't think you need to.

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I went searching so hard.

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I feel like this is where our podcast turns into a true crime podcast.

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We abandon all of our hopes and dreams in comedy and just get really-

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And we instantly increase our popularity because people are morbidly really into murder podcasts.

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Yeah, I know, totally.

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Well, I'd like to give my, how about this?

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We'll close out on my piece with me giving myself props.

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You know, let's hear it for me being a woman who is constantly has her head on a swivel

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trying to perceive danger at all times.

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It's exhausting, but it paid off this time around.

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My quick thinking and my ability to act in that moment.

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Yeah, that's it.

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And I hope the people who are involved, like I said, I hope they're okay.

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I hope they're not injured.

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Tough stuff.

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That is tough.

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It is.

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Yeah.

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But in other news, I started writing a sketch, not based on this, based on just absolute

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silliness and nonsense, which is great because I haven't felt inspired to write a sketch

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for some time.

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So, you know, comedy is pouring out of me, whether I like it or not.

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Like sweat?

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Yeah.

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Yes.

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I was going to say other fluids, but let's leave it a sweat.

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Let's leave it a sweat.

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Yeah.

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Oh, and today, aren't we supposed to find out?

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Oh, snap.

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Oh boy.

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Should we do that on the podcast?

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Yeah.

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I mean, I can cut this part out too.

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Yeah.

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I don't know if it goes sideways for us.

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Okay.

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Nothing.

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Okay.

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Nothing.

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Riveting podcasting.

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As Gabbie checks her email.

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I know.

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What Gabbie was doing was checking your email for our Not Sisters submission for San Francisco

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SketchFest.

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Yeah.

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And they previously told us that they received way more applicants, so it's taking them

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longer to get back.

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But this was a date, November 1st, that they said that they would get back to people.

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So I checked once.

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That's assurance.

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I'm not checking again.

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But that does mean that my segment is done and Heather, how have the past couple of weeks

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been going for you comedically or altercational-ly?

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Mine wasn't as exciting as yours.

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I guess if that's what you want to call that situation.

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Because maybe I don't call it exciting.

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Maybe I call it traumatic or-

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I mean, all of the above.

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There was a certain thrill to it, sure.

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Yeah.

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I think I would have stayed home for a few weeks.

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I am trying to remember what I was supposed to do.

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I have written down a second draft of a humor piece.

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Oh yeah.

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I've been working on my humor pieces and I have class happening soon and I'm prepping

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for that.

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I also have another humor piece that I'm writing that I wanted to revisit again and submit

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to other people that I don't know.

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So I'm going to submit to strangers and get their opinions on it, which is kind of exciting.

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I didn't get to work on my doubt it script that much this week.

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I started it and then I ended up-

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Okay, so I'm going to admit something.

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I don't know if this was procrastination or helpful because I can see it both ways and

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nobody can hear my head right now.

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So I need to say words.

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So I opened a program up that Adobe has, it's called Animate, in my past life.

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I think it was called Flash before.

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Oh yeah, yeah, totally.

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Yeah, a while ago.

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I don't know.

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But I have built animations before using that iteration of the program.

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And so I decided, hey, I'm going to open it up.

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And what's great about Adobe right now is that they have tutorials and I basically did

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a bunch of tutorials on how to animate because I am actively thinking about continuing doing

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my really stupid sketch series, like terrible animation sketch series.

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Oh God, that title is terrible.

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I mean, it literally has the word terrible in the title.

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So yes.

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Yeah.

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That's probably not the title.

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That's just what I'm calling it.

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But I got excited.

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There's so much more stuff that you could do now that I didn't even know.

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And so my mind kind of got blown a little bit.

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And so I got a little too excited, but now I'm kind of backing up a little bit because

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I'm realizing, I don't know if it's a sense of novelty of making things do silly things,

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like little animated characters versus actually building something that could work as a series.

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I don't know.

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I've been kind of going back and forth on this one because I don't want to become an

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animator.

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But I do want to be able to teach myself how to kind of produce and direct and write a

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series.

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And so this is like my way of being able to control the scale of it because with recording

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stuff it takes a lot of effort.

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I'm not saying the animation doesn't take a lot of effort.

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It does take a lot of effort, but it's a different kind of effort.

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So that is where I am on that one.

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So I don't know if that was procrastination or helpful, but I'm going to call it helpful-ish.

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Yes.

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It's sort of helpful because I think it either opens a door or it just kind of goes, nope,

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not going to do this.

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Yeah.

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And I think it's also like working on other things when you feel stuck on one creative

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project is a great way to kind of like knock some stuff around in your head.

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You know what I mean?

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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I'm going to say it was still productive.

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I hate to tell you because this was one of your original goals was doing the animation

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with the sketch.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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I think the animation part in my brain kind of got away for me because I think I was thinking

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like, I think I was trying to make it perfect.

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What?

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You never.

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And I was like, well, then how do I get this out faster?

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Yeah.

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But then also, you know, using the sketches that I've written and, you know, and then

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having people do voices and stuff or me do voices because I'm not acting.

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Well, it's acting voice acting that is acting, but it's acting that you feel comfortable

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with.

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Yes.

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Yes, it is.

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That's cool.

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That's very cool.

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What would you like to do over the next couple of weeks then?

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The next couple of weeks I'm going to, well, I'm going to have my humor pieces done by

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then.

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I do really want to focus on doubt it.

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I think that if I get it done and not distract myself by trying to produce another thing,

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I think that it will feel like it's moving forward because I think it's something that's

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kind of living in my brain, but not really living on paper at the moment or computer

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screen.

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I guess that's really where it lives.

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I say paper, but really it's digital paper.

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So that's where it lives.

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I think I'm going to set my goal at that.

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Good.

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And then also any mutual goals that we do.

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Oh yeah.

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Yeah.

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If you want to work on your graphic, then, you know, announcement, then I would like

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to help on that.

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Yes.

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That.

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Okay.

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I'm sorry.

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I just felt like I was about to talk about my goals and I was like, no, no, you should

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because that's okay.

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Yeah, I'm done.

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It was natural.

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It was a good instinct.

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Cool.

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Great.

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I think I want to simplify.

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I think I just want to focus on the graphic right now.

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I think I want to finish the first draft of this sketch that I'm writing.

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Good.

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And I started to tighten up the set that I was going to do.

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So maybe I'll do that too, but probably not.

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I think I'm just going to focus on the graphic and finishing this first draft.

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Yeah, that sounds great.

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My God.

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We've done it.

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I know it's amazing.

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Yay.

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Yay.

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Nobody can see this at all.

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For the viewers out there.

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Yeah.

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We just, we were, what were we doing?

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What was this?

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We were doing some very incredible break dancing that turned into ballet and levitated for

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a second.

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So too bad you couldn't see it.

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Yeah.

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We're so talented.

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That's so true.

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Honestly, that's all anybody ever says about us.

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And it's like, please tell me something I don't know.

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Oh, this is making me feel warm inside.

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Like not in a good way.

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Good.

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Good checking.

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Good checking.

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Yeah.

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Well, friends, I think we did it.

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Yeah we did it.

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Do we do that every time?

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I don't know.

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I think we might.

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I honestly think we might.

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Although I was listening to one of our old episodes and at least Bunny's not whining

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through all the rest of the end of this podcast.

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Well, he could.

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He's our mascot.

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He is our mascot.

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Also, Bunny is a dog just in case people are like, you have a rabbit who whines.

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No, he's a dog.

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I tried to name him Wallace.

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It didn't stick.

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His name is Bunny.

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He's got a good personality.

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He does.

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He's not whining.

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Yeah.

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Okay.

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So rock on to you, to our listeners, to everybody.

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Bunny, rock on.

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I don't know how to end this.

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Okay.

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Let's just say goodbye.

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Bye everybody.

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Bye everyone.

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Welcome to the end of the show.

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This is Gabbie Blachman.

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And this is Heather Nye.

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Thank you for listening to Comically Exposed.

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