Episode 8

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And welcome back.

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Welcome to, welcome to Comically Exposed.

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My name is Gabbie Blachman.

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And my name is Heather Nye.

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And this is a podcast that we talk about OCD and doing comedy stuff and becoming comedy

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people and eventually, I don't know, getting paid to do comedy stuff.

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True.

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Also, this is episode eight.

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Okay.

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That was, that was well done.

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Good.

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I totally forgot what our intro was.

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It was just, we don't have one.

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Cool.

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Um, so welcome to episode eight.

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And at this point, you know, the drill, we talk about stuff that goals that we set for

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the last episode, how did it go?

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And then we set some goals going forward.

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We talked about some OCD stuff.

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And then we say, bye bye.

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And this episode may be a little bit short.

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Might be.

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I don't know.

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We'll see.

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We'll see.

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Things happen so organically.

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So it's just, we have intentions and then stuff happens.

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Speaking of organic transitions, Heather, how has your past couple of weeks been in

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terms of comedy go-holes?

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Not very great.

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Cool.

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I haven't really done much, just had a bit of, a little bit of OCD pop up.

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Okay.

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Talk about that.

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Just a little bit means OCD popped up.

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So one of my things is, one of my things, it's like it's only my thing.

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No, is overthinking.

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Yeah.

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Something I struggle with sometimes, especially when I end up in a loop, I tend to overthink,

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but not in a way that people may think it is.

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So with me, or with OCD in general, you think you're problem solving, but the reality is

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it's a problem that you can't really solve.

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You're thinking about it and you're constantly thinking about it and you're thinking in some

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way where you can kind of control the outcome.

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And recently I just watched, so I paid for access to IOCDFs, which is the International

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OCD Foundation online conference.

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Yeah.

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In October.

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And I haven't watched the on demand conference parts.

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And today I thought it was really important to watch one in particular that's called Thinking

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on Thinking, shared strategies in terms of overthinking and how to overcome.

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Especially because for me, I expose myself all the time, but the important part of ERP

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is figuring out the RP, the...

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Why am I now struggling?

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Response prevention.

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Response prevention.

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I was like, right when I had to say it, it left my brain.

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So response prevention.

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And finding things to be able to sit with the uncomfortable feeling, which is usually

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the anxiety and actually finding strategies to basically exercise the response.

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Which in some ways they're a little devious.

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I don't know what your therapist has told you to do, but one in particular that I recently

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learned was called Penny sock, where you stick a penny in your sock, which is very annoying.

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I'm so sorry.

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Yeah.

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Speaking of annoying, somebody's barking.

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So give me two shakes and then we're going to get into Penny sock.

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All right.

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I'm just going to say it.

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I don't know why.

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I know we can't afford much on this show, but having Bunny be our producer is just not...

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He's loud.

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He's got a pulse focus.

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He's always trying to do his ASMR videos.

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Okay.

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Now that everybody's settled, Heather, can you please explain Penny sock?

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Yes.

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Penny sock is literally what it is.

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Is a penny in your sock and you basically put a penny in your sock for the entire day.

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And it's meant to annoy you.

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It's meant to be a distraction and it simulates.

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It's a physical simulation basically of an intrusive thought, right?

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Because it's the pain, the anguish that we feel.

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And so the intent is noticing the penny, but not engaging.

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So you're not even engaging with the annoyance.

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And that for those who don't have the disorder is a really big part of OCD is the reason

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why we go to the compulsion because honestly we can't control intrusive thoughts.

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Intrusive thoughts will always happen for everybody, mostly for OCD people, but everybody

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has intrusive thoughts.

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But compulsions don't always happen for everybody and compulsions are there for relief.

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A relief, distraction from the annoyance, the anxiety, the fear, the whatever, the emotion

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is attached to it that's uncomfortable.

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And so after a while, the theory is you won't notice it anymore.

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So even though it's still there, you won't, you might forget it's there.

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And that's the intent is to basically train a muscle within your mind to be able to tolerate

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an annoyance.

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And I thought that was brilliant.

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I was like, oh, that's a great idea.

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But they were also saying that it doesn't have to be a penny.

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It can be anything.

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It could be in your sock.

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It can be in like if, you know, it could be like in a pocket or something like that.

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You can start small, you can start big, you know, I mean, mostly small, but you want to

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start where you can start basically.

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But I thought that was such a brilliant idea to be able to work on that, you know, response

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prevention.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Particularly because it's, you know, one of the things about exposures, we've talked about

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it is that they take place in relative safety, right?

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Nobody's going to ask you if you have an overwhelming terror of tigers.

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No therapist is going to say jump in the cage, right?

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So instead you do an imaginal exposure, something like that.

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So this is a relatively safe way.

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And it is like for me, I find that intrusive thought, this may sound dumb, it's in your

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head, right?

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But it puts you, it pulls you into your head.

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It takes you out of your body.

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Yes, it does.

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And so having a physical irritant, like a penny in the sock, kind of sticks you back

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in your body.

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And it's just like a whole other physical thing to do with it.

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And I also was thinking about intrusive thought, which, yeah, everybody has, but it's a disorder

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because we assign so much meaning.

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We do.

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To the thought, right?

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And the penny in the sock is, it's just so great because it's like, you can assign meaning

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to that penny, right?

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Like my foot is going to get injured from this.

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I'm going to develop a blister.

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I don't know what other meaning.

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It's going to dye my sock a fun color, whatever.

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Yeah, the bacteria on the penny is going to infect my foot.

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Which that's a tough one because copper is actually has a lot of antimicrobial.

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Oh yeah, that's true.

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It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter.

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It's probably the cleanest currency that we...

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Okay, we're on a tangent.

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No, I should put it in my mouth.

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That's exactly what it was good for.

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Thank you.

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And shout out to our friends with contamination issues who have just turned the podcast off.

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Yes, yes.

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It gives you something that you could assign meaning to, right?

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There's a penny in my shoe and I have to solve that problem.

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Yes.

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Getting back to you were talking about it originally.

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Yes.

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But you're the one who's being like, no, we're not going to solve that problem.

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We're just going to sit with it or walk with it and have it go.

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Fascinating.

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Yeah, and it's another one for the arsenal of tools because you can't just use one tool

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to be able to train your mind to not detach, to not engage, or to not engage but not detach

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or to avoid.

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You don't want to distract yourself.

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You're aware that it's happening, that it is a penny in your sock.

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Yeah, exactly.

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And so you're more present minded.

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Yeah.

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And you're still doing whatever it is that you want to be doing outside of the penny

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in the sock.

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Yeah.

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I think that's so cool.

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Yeah, I had a million jokes while you were talking that I was like, don't say it, Gabbie.

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Okay, I'm just going to say one.

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You said you're like, it doesn't even have to be a penny.

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It can be anything.

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I was like, yeah, two pennies anyway.

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$5 worth of pennies.

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Yes, $5 worth of pennies in one sock.

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In one sock.

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For one foot.

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You'll never notice it, guys.

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You will definitely stop noticing $5 worth of pennies.

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But I did want to say a couple of things, which is one, even though you said that you

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haven't done a lot of stuff with comedy, you have been working on a lot of projects, this

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podcast for one.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Okay.

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And you say that dismissively, but I'm saying it.

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Yes, I do.

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I say it also judgmentally.

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Yeah.

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Oh, good.

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Because it's like talking about the podcast on the podcast.

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Okay.

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Yeah, we're meta.

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Come after us.

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I know.

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I know.

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You know?

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But that is work still that you are doing.

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That furthers comedy, right?

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Yes.

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Furthers your expertise in podcasting.

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And you've been helping out a friend of ours try and figure out some audio issues for them

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to whatever results.

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But I'm just saying you're putting in work.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, that's true.

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So you know.

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I am helping in aid of comedy.

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That's right.

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I'm just judging myself.

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I'm truly judging myself for not writing as much as I want to.

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And so I know that it's judgment.

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I can name it for what it is.

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Okay.

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I hear the judgment.

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I also wonder, is it easier to work on other people's stuff or mutually like our mutual

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podcast goals than to...

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Yes.

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Mm-hmm.

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Yeah.

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I already knew the answer.

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Of course you do because you're like, yeah.

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Same thing.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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It's not OCD, right?

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That's just me trying to be...

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A creative.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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And putting yourself out there.

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Oh, that too.

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But even writing.

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So when you talk about writing, are you talking about writing and submitting it someplace?

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Is that the whole idea and is that what's holding you back or is it just sitting down,

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cranking out an hour worth of tip-tap typing?

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For right now, I think it's the tip-tap typing issue.

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But I also think, I think you're also stumbling on something, is a whole rejection component

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of it because if I don't finish it, then I have nothing to be rejected by.

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That's right.

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That's why instead of a penny, I'm going to say, shoot yourself in the foot because

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then no one can ask you to run a marathon.

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True, true.

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And then that's, you know what's interesting is that I have been contemplating doing a

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rejection file just like our friend Kelsey is doing right now.

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Shout out to Kelsey, writer extraordinaire.

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Yeah, because she's done, she's been the most productive in her writing and more, I

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think, bold, honestly.

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I mean, whether or not she would actually say that, but I think she's like putting yourself

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out there and doing any kind of creative work, not just for comedy, but just creative work

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and putting yourself out there.

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It is very impressive when we talk to her.

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I'm like, oh snap.

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Yeah.

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And this podcast is now for, it's called Kelsey.

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Because Kelsey...

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Our savior.

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The cult of Kelsey.

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Yeah, the cult of Kelsey.

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There we go.

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Okay.

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Okay.

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Yeah, that was, did you hear your name Kelsey?

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All right.

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But yeah, I mean, I'm with you.

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It's easier for me to fold socks than it is to finish writing this sketch, right?

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It's easier for me to, I mean, fold socks sounds delightful.

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I will stick my hand and clean out a garbage disposal before, right?

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And I wonder how much of that is just the creative process.

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I wonder how much of that is self doubt.

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I wonder how much of that is rejection.

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Perceived down the line rejection, which I'm going to say again, is that future problem

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solving.

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Could you tie that back into OCD?

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Yeah.

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And then the thinking about the thinking is also a part of it.

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It's like, yeah, it's like, I hate it.

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Why does this happen?

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Because if I didn't think, I was like, I always go, I just have to do it.

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But then let me think about this a little bit more because I have more questions to

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ask and then, you know, trying to put the dishes away.

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Yay!

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A task that I didn't want to do until I had something more meaningful to do.

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Yes.

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Yes.

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So, uh, shoot.

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I was going to ask you.

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Or it's back to me and the damn Wi-Fi, you know?

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What?

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Oh, you setting up?

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Like home network.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, I know.

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It's amazing all the things that Heather is now like a moderate to expert in just in the

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time that I've known you truly.

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It's like, do you need a Wi-Fi system?

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I'm not just talking like any Wi-Fi.

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I'm talking like mesh.

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I'm telling you, she's got like the ability to run troubleshooting on a system and I don't

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know.

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Well, it's no longer the mesh though, but we don't have to talk about Wi-Fi because

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this would be a very boring, very boring episode.

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Welcome back to Wi-Fi Talk.

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What would be that podcast name?

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Um, Wi-Pi.

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Nope.

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Keep moving.

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Why not Pi?

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Yeah, why not Pi?

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The Wi-Pod.

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Okay, anyhow, we're both comedians.

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Please hire us.

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Well, I was going to talk to you about the IOCD conference because a couple of years

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back during the pandemic, I also attended their online one and then was given access

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to the whole conference for a number of days.

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Now was my OCD kind of running rampant because it was the height of the pandemic and I didn't

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have a lot of other stuff to focus on.

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Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah.

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But I was going to ask you because what happened to me was I got very OCD about reading the

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full list of panels and programming and stuff and highlighting and then deciding all the

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ones that I had to watch and I had to listen to and then got, like the whole conference

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happened.

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I watched a bunch of them live and then I watched a bunch of them, you know, the pre-tapes

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and then I got hugely overwhelmed, avoided the shit out of it, let the access lapse because

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you're only given so many days after the conference is over and then beat myself up for all the

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many panels and helpful talks that probably could have changed my life.

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How are you doing?

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I think when it first came out in October, I was in a better place with my mentors and

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I actually was very focused on the things that related to the things that I was most

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concerned about.

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But the one thing that I didn't do is attend officially the online.

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So I missed a couple of the ones that I really wanted to attend and the one that makes me

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laugh the most was about the social anxiety one because it was a group session and I was

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like, of course, I would miss the social anxiety one.

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Well, did anybody, do we think anybody showed up to that one?

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I don't think anybody showed up and I think the panel went like, no, yeah, that's on us.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, yeah.

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I did feel a little overwhelmed.

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I watched one that was so fascinating.

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I watched an ERP session, an exposure session live or not live.

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I was recorded, but at the time it was live and I was thinking, wow, this woman is very

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brave and it was interesting to see the different techniques and what the therapist was doing

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because it also taught me a few things.

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Was I holding back?

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But not judging myself.

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I was just thinking about it.

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It was like, you know, that sensation that you get when you feel uncomfortable in an

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exposure and then I was thinking, you know, because I do do a lot of dissociation.

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And so, you know, which is a, you know, a detachment and avoidance, you know, sometimes

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it happens more naturally than others, but yeah.

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And then, but then I watched two other parts, two other parts of the conference at the same

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time, like at the same day.

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And it was just so intense.

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Like I think that if I went the entire day and attended all the ones that I thought I

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was going to attend, I think I would be very overwhelmed.

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Oh yeah.

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Yeah.

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And now I'm being selective of the ones that I'm interested in.

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I have been reading some, but I haven't been highlighting and revisiting the ones that

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I wanted to go attend.

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And so I'm mostly looking to the things and then also collecting some information.

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Like I've been taking notes, like some notes, because some things like the sock thing was

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interesting.

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And then also being able to tap in with the people because they gave their email addresses

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and you know, seeing if they had other things that they're working on or other things, other

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takes on how to practice things for thinking on thinking.

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So that's, I don't know.

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I'm trying my best.

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Yeah.

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I'm doing great, man.

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I'm doing great.

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Okay.

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Now that we've talked about me a lot.

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Nice try.

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This episode is called Heather, Heather, Heather.

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How about you Gabbie?

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What have you been working on?

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Well thank you.

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I had a bunch of stuff that I had like three or four things that I was going to do.

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And I will say the main one that I tried to do is the Bat Shit Roommate podcast.

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I've wanted my sister to be the first guest for a long time.

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And Heather, you and I talked about like how to set up Squadcast, which is how we record

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this one.

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Signing up for Descript, you know, which level of subscription service to get, you know,

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like the whole thing.

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So my sister, the farmer has more availability in the wintertime because the sun sets at

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like 5 p.m. and it starts freezing.

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And so there's like, she really can't work.

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So I was really excited for us to record.

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And the first time we tried it, the same thing happened to us as had happened to you and

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I where we couldn't figure out why we couldn't hear each other.

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And it's because there was like an echo toggle.

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But we didn't figure that out until a very frustrating hour, hour and a half had passed.

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So at the end of that, I was like, hey, buddy, you still want to record?

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She was like, no.

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And I was like, yeah, that's fair.

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So then the next time we tried it and we did like a first episode, right.

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Pretty cool.

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Afterwards, I mean, Squadcast kept giving like these notifications like app is not focused

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or Wi-Fi is struggling or what, you know, it kind of felt like a read every now and

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then.

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But we finished and then I downloaded the files.

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Great.

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And then I went to listen to them the other day.

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Well, here's something cool.

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A squadcast did not record any of hers because her Wi-Fi was so shitty.

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Oh, geez.

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Oh, geez.

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So yeah, I eventually found like one of them.

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It doesn't matter.

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So that was like, OK, strike two.

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Cool.

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Then Thanksgiving comes around and she's spending the night over here with me.

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So we were like, OK, well, you know, we'll record together.

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So we record in person.

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I've got my laptop right there.

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It is a phenomenal episode.

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OK, it's like the first one.

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Yeah, I know you can tell where this is going.

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It's the first one where I felt like loose.

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We came we remembered so much stuff about, you know, us living together and various stories

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and whatever.

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And we're laughing.

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We're having a great time.

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It's like an hour long.

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And I look over and my laptop has turned itself.

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The screen is black.

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So I'm like, oh, that's weird.

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So I wake it up.

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Who forgot to hit record?

00:23:10
Oh, my goodness.

00:23:13
Gabbie.

00:23:14
And that's why they call me a genius, you know, and I don't throw that term around lightly.

00:23:22
Yeah, that was that one stung because at least the rest of the time it was like, you know,

00:23:29
technology.

00:23:30
No, no, this was just me not hitting the recording.

00:23:34
But I mean, I can't.

00:23:39
So we did just like a test session, you know, for and because I said, hey, do you have another

00:23:45
episode in you?

00:23:46
And she said, no, again, totally understandable.

00:23:51
The takeaway is this.

00:23:52
I now have a checklist and the checklist says, make sure there are two types of recording

00:23:58
happening for each person.

00:24:01
And then it says, check to see that you've hit the recording.

00:24:05
And then the next one says, really, check to see that you've hit the record button.

00:24:11
So feeling good.

00:24:13
Feeling good.

00:24:14
Good.

00:24:15
Good.

00:24:16
Yeah.

00:24:17
The other thing is that the open mic night, the only one that works with my schedule,

00:24:21
the one that comes every month was today.

00:24:25
And I really debated going to do it.

00:24:27
I just I don't think I can after last time.

00:24:30
I just so you know, got to figure out something there.

00:24:34
The good things are the checklist and I bought the script.

00:24:38
So I'm a full fledged I won't say podcaster because I didn't hit record, but something

00:24:44
a paying member.

00:24:46
Yes.

00:24:47
Yes.

00:24:48
Yes.

00:24:49
Mm hmm.

00:24:50
I don't know, man.

00:24:51
I don't know.

00:24:52
You're you're doing good.

00:24:53
There's no so it does take a lot to do.

00:24:57
I mean, I don't know where I'm going with this.

00:25:02
I think you're going to reassure me and I really appreciate that.

00:25:05
But we don't have to do it.

00:25:07
I think we've we've done enough OCD talk for the day.

00:25:10
I you know, it's fine.

00:25:12
There were other stuff that I was going to do, like pick a date for the table read, like

00:25:16
finish this sketch I had.

00:25:18
Blah, blah, blah.

00:25:19
None of that happened either.

00:25:20
Yeah.

00:25:21
I don't know if we've talked about it on this show or not, but I'm doing TMS for a couple

00:25:25
months and I'm I think a little almost halfway through and it's exhausting.

00:25:31
It is very tiring.

00:25:32
It takes a lot out of me.

00:25:34
And so I'm trying to be gentle with myself, as you can tell by me.

00:25:39
No.

00:25:40
Anyway, so yeah, it's not helpful when you start to judge yourself and criticize the things

00:25:46
that you haven't done.

00:25:47
Yeah, but you wouldn't know anything about that, would you?

00:25:49
No, I wouldn't because I am perfect.

00:25:54
She did it.

00:25:55
She did it.

00:25:56
I did it.

00:25:57
I said it.

00:25:58
Oh, I know what I was going to ask you way back when.

00:26:00
Oh, when you're having a lot of OCD around, I call it future problem solving, right?

00:26:06
There's probably can't solve, but you're still thinking about it, ruminating, trying to solve

00:26:10
it, blah, blah, blah.

00:26:11
Do you ever have dreams about it?

00:26:15
Yeah.

00:26:16
Yeah, yeah.

00:26:17
Uh huh.

00:26:18
I have had dreams where I need to do like some writing or like some kind of low programming

00:26:25
or build something and I will have fucking done it.

00:26:32
Wake up, realize that I didn't actually do it.

00:26:37
Be so pissed off.

00:26:39
Go back to sleep.

00:26:40
What do you think?

00:26:41
My brain is served up again.

00:26:43
Yeah.

00:26:44
Build in the heart for a fourth time.

00:26:47
It's like an alternate reality.

00:26:49
Yeah, it truly fucking sucks.

00:26:51
Anyway, does that ever happen to you?

00:26:54
My dreams, I call them anxiety dreams and I also call the future problem solving, future

00:27:01
tripping because that's where I'm going because it trips me up.

00:27:07
That's why.

00:27:08
Oh yeah.

00:27:09
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:27:10
I don't dream about doing the stuff, like getting it done.

00:27:16
I dream about trying to get it done and it is impossible.

00:27:20
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:27:23
Those dreams.

00:27:24
Yes.

00:27:25
It's more often than not about not being able to finish something, which causes more anxiety,

00:27:31
which is great because it wakes me up and then I jump out of bed and then I can't get

00:27:38
back to sleep because my adrenaline is running.

00:27:43
Nothing like being panicked out of a sleep state.

00:27:47
Oh yeah.

00:27:50
It's fun.

00:27:51
Yeah.

00:27:52
Listen, along with OCD, we're selling panic attacks.

00:27:55
People if you haven't tried this, it is an excellent way to exercise the heart without

00:28:02
any real reason.

00:28:04
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:28:07
Feel like you're drowning, like the walls are closing in, like you can't breathe, like

00:28:11
you can't swallow.

00:28:13
Any other ones that you?

00:28:15
The one that I think about once I is choking and can't breathe when I have my panic attack

00:28:21
is where they will find my dead body and who will find my dead body.

00:28:25
Sexier.

00:28:26
I know.

00:28:27
It's a lot of death talk.

00:28:30
I mean, it's that time of year, is it?

00:28:35
Yep.

00:28:36
It's the holidays.

00:28:38
Exactly.

00:28:39
It's the most deathiest time of the year.

00:28:44
I'm very sing-songy today.

00:28:47
Do you want to skip to what we're going to do?

00:28:50
Yeah, well, first we should mention.

00:28:53
Oh, yeah.

00:28:54
We're going on winter break.

00:28:56
That's right.

00:28:58
Just like we were in sixth grade.

00:29:00
So episode nine will actually be broadcasted on January 10th, 2024.

00:29:09
That's crazy.

00:29:10
I know.

00:29:11
So over the break.

00:29:14
Yes.

00:29:15
These are my goals.

00:29:17
Ooh.

00:29:18
One, I finished my humor writing class this month, early in this month.

00:29:27
Or December, I should state which month we're in.

00:29:32
And I'm hoping that I would have pieces or at least started pieces to be able to submit.

00:29:38
So I'm excited about that.

00:29:42
To be rejected would be a nice one to feel, or not nice, but be a nice practice.

00:29:49
An exposure, if you will.

00:29:51
Yes, an exposure.

00:29:52
The other thing was I really did want to finish my, I say this all the time, but I do want

00:29:59
to take time and finish my first episode of my audio podcast.

00:30:05
And my plan was to actually submit it to somebody for review.

00:30:10
Ooh.

00:30:11
Yeah.

00:30:12
That's motivating.

00:30:13
Stick a date on top of that and you've really got yourself a piece of the pie.

00:30:18
A piece of apple pie.

00:30:19
I'm going to say yes.

00:30:23
Are you hungry?

00:30:25
Pie has been mentioned twice already.

00:30:29
So yeah.

00:30:30
It's a good number.

00:30:32
It's a good food.

00:30:34
It is.

00:30:35
There's a third thing.

00:30:39
How about you, Gabbie?

00:30:42
What's your goal?

00:30:43
Oh, yeah.

00:30:44
No pressure.

00:30:45
No, no, no.

00:30:46
Usually I have an idea of like what I want to do.

00:30:54
I don't know, man.

00:30:55
How about this?

00:30:56
I'm going to leave it kind of loosey goosey.

00:30:58
I'm going to say I'd love to figure out like a table read.

00:31:04
I'd love to figure out like the first episode of the Bat Shit Roommate podcast if I could

00:31:09
just get my sister and the record button in a room.

00:31:16
But you know, I don't know.

00:31:18
You know, I still have TMS, I think throughout most of December.

00:31:23
And yeah.

00:31:29
What a decisive way to end the year, you know?

00:31:34
Yes, exactly.

00:31:36
And that's since it's an audio medium, you know, people couldn't really see the utter

00:31:49
shrug of it all that I was getting.

00:31:52
They could feel it in your voice.

00:31:54
Yeah.

00:31:55
I mean, at least I did.

00:31:56
Shrug energy.

00:31:58
I get that a lot.

00:31:59
They don't say you're shrill, they say you're shrug.

00:32:04
I mean, and then the other thing, and this is just left field, you and I did briefly

00:32:07
talk about how I like comedy goal would be me as the host of a late night talk show in

00:32:16
the vein of Last Week Tonight, right?

00:32:19
And why am I waiting for somebody to give me a shot to do that when, you know, YouTube

00:32:31
exists, I have a camera on my phone, you know.

00:32:35
You have a great co-host in Bunny.

00:32:38
Yeah.

00:32:40
He wants to be the producer again.

00:32:42
And I've told him, I just I can't go down that road again.

00:32:45
You know, it's like he's already ruined so many things for me.

00:32:50
That would be a great co-host.

00:32:51
I could just keep him on the desk, stop talking about important things, just start petting

00:32:56
him for a couple of minutes.

00:32:59
That's what the people want to see.

00:33:00
Anyway, there's a lot of rambling.

00:33:01
There's thoughts, there's ideas.

00:33:06
There's...

00:33:10
So this short recording is now in 37 minutes long.

00:33:16
We'll see how much it gets cut out.

00:33:20
Yeah, great.

00:33:21
You know, a lot of pauses, a lot of pie talk.

00:33:28
Welcome back to Pie Talk.

00:33:30
Yes, Pie Talk.

00:33:31
It's like TikTok, but with pie.

00:33:34
That's right.

00:33:35
It's actually we're starting.

00:33:36
Welcome to the Kickstarter because we're doing a GoFundMe, we're raising that venture capital

00:33:42
so that we can do pie talk.

00:33:45
It's not on your phone.

00:33:46
It's an actual pie that shows up to your house and...

00:33:50
You just watch it.

00:33:51
You just watch a pie.

00:33:55
Stick a penny in your sock and a pie in your lap and wait for the world to catch up.

00:34:00
Beautiful world.

00:34:01
And on that note, we thank you for listening to the very end of our podcast and we can't

00:34:09
wait to talk to you again in the 2024s of it all.

00:34:13
Yes.

00:34:14
Yeah.

00:34:15
See you next year, everyone.

00:34:16
Yeah.

00:34:17
Have a good one.

00:34:18
Stay safe.

00:34:19
Do comedy.

00:34:20
Live, laugh, love.

00:34:21
High five a million angels.

00:34:22
Pie.

00:34:23
Take a minute.

00:34:24
Okay, ready?

00:34:25
One, two, three.

00:34:26
Pie.

00:34:27
Pie.

00:34:28
Pie.

00:34:29
Pie.

00:34:30
One, two, three.

00:34:31
Pie.

00:34:32
We did it.

00:34:33
Okay.

00:34:34
We nailed it.

00:34:35
Bye.

00:34:36
Bye.

00:34:37
Bye.

00:34:38
Bye.

00:34:39
Welcome to the end of the show.

00:34:42
This is Gabbie Blachman.

00:34:44
And this is Heather Nye.

00:34:46
Thank you for listening to Comically Exposed.

00:34:48
We are just a little show with two creators who edit and produce each episode.

00:34:54
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00:34:56
If you like what you heard, please follow us on Instagram at comicallyexp.podcast.

00:35:02
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00:35:09
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00:35:14
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00:35:18
Also special thanks to Track Club and Gxldxn Fxnch for providing the music.

00:35:22
Thanks for listening.

00:35:23
Okay, everybody, today is a great day to expose yourself.

00:35:28
Okay, until next time.

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Ta-da for ta-da.

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